Richard’s wife phoned me. She told me that yesterday, 6 days after the operation, Richard started getting headaches. She was told to give him a certain type of pill which she did and it went away.

Today he did not look well. Then the headaches returned and he started throwing up. When he threw up he also threw up clots of blood.

They decided to put him in their combi and to put a bed in the combi and she and their 10-year-old son were by him while her father drove the 3 1/2 hours to the hospital. On the way Richard threw up a lot. Richard was very worried about choking (since he’s still paralysed). He also seems to have had some problem swallowing – even swallowing a pill.

They got him into hospital and he is on a drip now. He spoke quite coherently there.

So they’ve done all they can. But I think everyone is very shocked by this turn of events. She now fears for Richard’s life as do I.

The strange headaches worry me. I wonder if that horrific cancer is back at work in parts of his brain where it will now kill him or turn him into a cabbage?

That cancer is no joke. It grows at a shocking rate.

The blood that he is throwing up is a mystery to me.

But I seriously wonder whether Richard will be leaving the hospital alive. My mother has made peace with God. I told his wife that everyone has done all they can.

They say the good die young. Richard turned 41 2 days ago. I’ve heard it said that many people die after their birthdays. Well, Richard was one of the best people I knew. He’s not like me at all. He never had the nasty streaks that I have. He was a good person who wouldn’t hurt a fly.

So my thinking is that maybe this is the end. We’ll have to see what the days ahead hold for us. This cancer seems to kill very quicky, so things will either get better or worse in a very few days. But as I’ve said, its in God’s hands and that is where I leave these things. In the end, its a road all of us must walk. Jan.