[Last night for some unknown reason it suddenly got warm – on a cold night – and I was tossing and turning not quite able to settle down to fall back asleep again.

And eventually when I realised that sleep (which I am badly in need of!) would not return easily. My mind turned to thinking about President PW Botha, that damned CIA and the problems of Individuality as well as Despondency, which exist among whites.

Believe it or not, I actually got some inspiration as I pondered these issues and a bunch of ideas flooded into my mind.

So I have a question for you: Does anyone know how I can DIGITALLY record a normal telephone conversation? I’d like to record a telephone conversation on to a PC. If anyone can help me… please drop me a line at: [email protected]

I must tell you all that the most shocking discovery for me this year has been the realisation that the CIA is (sometimes) my enemy. That’s kinda sad. I always thought they were too lazy or useless… but in fact I was wrong. They are far more active and on the ball than I ever gave them credit for. They move quickly and they get things done… but I’m so sad to see what the hell they actually do, because I think its completely wrong.

My attitude to the CIA is like my attitude to communism. Its not that I don’t understand what they are trying to do… its just that I disagree with the strategy. I can see the point of Globalism. I actually would agree with about 90% of what they’re trying to do… really… I can see the sense of it all. What fricking pisses me off about the CIA is that they seem to have absolutely ZERO CONCERN for the truth. I am all for globalism, but I have a problem with negotiating with and striking deals with terrorists, communists and dictators. That is inexcusable.

I couldn’t help wondering whether the presence of Richard Branson in South Africa is not another little CIA/MI6 project… perhaps Richard Branson is here to save Mbeki’s worthless ass.

Look, I’m rough on Mbeki… and in all reality, Mandela and Zuma may be 10 and 100 times WORSE… But I can’t see, how, by any stretch of the imagination, Mbeki can be considered a “friend” of us whites.

To me, the entire house of cards the CIA and Mbeki have built is based on a SOLID FOUNDATION OF COMPLETE LIES FROM THE COMMUNIST PARTY. I can’t see how this can be undone, without a MASSIVE GRASS ROOTS CAMPAIGN AIMED PURELY AT BLACK SOUTH AFRICANS! It is blacks, whose minds have been bent… and in all the decades of CIA intervention, they have never once tried to undo the DECADES of outright communist propaganda which has taken hold of black minds. If the CIA actually *WANTS* to do something positive for this country then they should be focussing their energies completely on BLACKS because it is blacks who have a completely skewed sense of reality. Blacks actually believe the rubbish preached by that liar, Karl Marx.

I’ve been toying with questions I’d like to ask President PW Botha. What I really like about President Botha is his directness and honesty. He may have taken a lot of flak for this, just as Ian Smith did for his, but such is life – many people cannot handle the TRUTH. You know, PW Botha and Ian Smith are in good company. If you will study the life of Napoleon Bonaparte, you will see that he got an even rawer deal. Napoleon was a very realistic, extremely brilliant man whose enemies smeared him, and the British very probably murdered him to shut him up. If you don’t believe me, do some research. There is forensic evidence that Napoleon died of the effects of long term poisoning. The only unknown question is whether it was a side-effect of medical treatment or whether it was DELIBERATE. Books have been written about this, and it has been discussed by scientists, but FEW want to ask the thorny question of whether the British Govt deliberately had him killed. Various prominent people in history who met Napoleon made comments about him. One of them (whose name now escapes me… Goethe?) remarked afterwards that never has he met anyone with the depth of understanding that Napoleon had. And it showed. Machiavelli is another man who had deep, brilliant and truthful insights, and who just came out and stated them openly. Now everyone regards him as evil. Machiavelli wasn’t evil. He was just downright honest about how the world really works.

The problem is that few realise the truth, and even less ACT ON IT… Look at how wishy washy modern leaders are – completely and utterly spineless. Modern leaders have no desire to tell the truth. They just tell their followers all the easy and comfortable lies.

So in South Africa, Mbeki and the CIA say: “A better life for all”. What a load of complete RUBBISH! No such thing. Come back with a more believable story line next time please…

I have a theory about the truth: I believe that the truth can lead to PEACE – worldwide, whereas lies will only lead to MORE WAR. We will see if this is so in the years ahead.

But, the path to peace through the truth requires, first of all, some WAR! I believe that if you were to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, that you would then find yourself with plenty of war on your hands. But if you hang in there and fight through it, that in the end, when it all settles down… there will be peace… true peace. Not this FAKE PEACE that we have… wherein we pretend there is peace, but when in fact everyone is secretly at war with everyone else – but a real peace. That’s my theory.

So my mission in life is to seek out the truth, and to tell it as best I understand it whereever I find it, and also to TELL IT IN THE RIGHT HISTORICAL CONTEXT! That is very important. I believe that this is what leaders should be doing… if they were leaders in the true sense of the word. They should be open and honest with those beneath them. I think people need to be guided and that is what leaders are there for. They must take information, assess it in its proper context and explain, PROPERLY, why they are following certain courses of action.

But… these days… everyone is a fake. Everyone is a fake friend of everyone else. Meanwhile backstabbing is the norm. And while pretending to be open and honest, everyone is in fact secretly engaging in much skull duggery.

What I am finding quite shocking is the propensity for the CIA to have to do many things which the US Govt could have done openly. But it appears to me, that the US Govt doesn’t want to tell their own people the truth about what’s going on so everything is done with black budgets, etc. So much for the great “open and honest society”. The closest they get to open and honest is Oprah! Come to think of it… considering what clowns modern leaders are, maybe Oprah should be President and Ricki Lake should be Vice President… and Jerry Springer should be in charge of the war on terror!

I pondered the matter of despondency and individualism, and I’ll write some more about it. I don’t see either of them as insurmountable problems. These things are also natural aspects of human beings, and in some cases maybe we can tap into these “forces of human nature”. For example, I think individualism has a great place. People want to be heroes and want to strive for greatness. So this should be encouraged. But it must be encouraged within the context of the “great good” … rather than in a purely SELFISH context.

Selfishness is a pet bug bear of mine. I can’t stand selfishness. In a sense I may sound like a communist. Each person should get what he worked/strove for. But, there comes a time too, where you must weigh up self interest versus group/nationalist interests. There are times when you must differentiate. You need to think in terms of your contribution to the group.

Individualism has its place. When used in the correct context, it can rock. If you will look at some armies, like the German army, which is known for its amazing efficiency… then you’ll see that they encourage INITIATIVE at the lower ranks. And we must encourage initiative too.

There is, in the normal existence of people, a struggle for rank. This goes back to biology and the fact that we are pack animals. Whereas the lying communist scum want you to believe that there can be a society without a pyramid structure hierarchy, I will tell you, that it cannot be any other way. It never has, and never will be any other way. It is also better for survival. The key rule is that people must rise in this hierarchy according to one attribute only: SKILL. The most skilled must rise the highest. This is how you get the strongest structure, because the strong and intelligent, then lead the rest, and their strength and intelligence is transmitted down through the ranks. A society led by idiots is a waste of time – hence I think that biologically, the current structure we have is a waste of time. We have fools and liars trying to lead us and it won’t work because we’ll never respect them – PERIOD.

I think individualism, when combined with the right set of values could work for us. If we can “tame” it… it could rock.

Despondency… is another animal. Its one I must discuss more. This stems originally from the fact that we have lost faith in one another.

A shocking fact from the Boer war is that a large portion of the Boer population lived outside the Boer Republics under British rule, and those Boers never rose to fight alongside their fellow Boers.

The problem with despondency is that people feel that it is a waste of time taking risks when nobody else will do the same. It boils down to a complete LACK OF FAITH IN YOUR FELLOW MAN. Now blacks also suffer from this same problem. They not only have no faith in each other but they don’t trust each other and they don’t even trust their own leaders! So they’re screwed. That’s why their leaders have to beat them and threaten them to get anything out of them.

But… for us… despondency is really a lack of faith in EACH OTHER.

To overcome this, we need to network, build our faith in each other, and morally and spiritually support each other. Also… one needs leaders… who volunteer themselves… who just stand up… and lead the charge… by THEMSELVES… Later, people will start following when they lead the charge.

Leadership requires a lot of selflessness. Some people have it. Some don’t. Leaders aren’t picked… they are people who just step up to the plate.

People should be talking to other people. Chat to your fellows. Work on their minds and spirits… work on your own. Get inspiration from the Bible or whereever else you can get it. Work on your own mental state and the mental state of your fellows.

In our current situation, with our individualism, we are pretty ready to be INTELLECTUAL GUERILLAS. Just wage a Guerilla war of the mind. “Ambush” people… with ideas… Remember each “kill” is one more score for our side. Use your initiative… and just wear everyone down…

Remember Winston Churchill’s words: Never give up! Never give up! Never give up! Never! NEVER!! NEVER!!!

I think, as our confidence grows, and as our group cohesion grows, other more substantial types of group co-operation will be possible.

In the meantime, let’s see if Richard Branson can save Mbeki’s ass by injecting some entrepreneurship into this Socialist country of ours. I am curious to see how much money Branson makes, and whether he can actually make a profit in this country or whether this country will break him!!

I chuckle at some of these foreign whites. They don’t know what they’re dealing with. I am going to enjoy watching this. They may hurt some of our existing businesses, but our existing businesses also have a very long track record of surviving in a very difficult country. Let’s see who breaks whom. Jan]